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The Beauty in a Lump of Coal
When asked what I would do if I hit the lottery, my answer has always been the same: I would be a perpetual student. I would enroll in school and thoroughly study every area that interests me; not because I want a list of degrees nor out of a desire to make money with those degrees, but because I find knowledge empowering and intoxicating.
Lately, however, I’ve been learning that knowledge can be dangerous. It can cause personal conflict and complicate situations that, on the surface, are simple or easy or fun. As I’ve thought about it, I’ve come to realize that knowing the whole truth can be a real bummer. And so, I wrote this statement on my Facebook page about two weeks ago and have been thinking about it ever since:
Don’t look for what you don’t want to find.
I suppose my statement is similar to the notion that ignorance is bliss, a concept I’ve always had a hard time embracing. Ignorance, to me, has always been the mechanism for producing fools. But on a personal level, I’m beginning to believe that there’s something to be said for the face value. It’s simple. If you like what you see, great! If you don’t, move on. There’s no misunderstanding, no complexity, no need to prove worth or value. A situation or relationship is always just as it appears.
Here’s the problem with all of that: I can’t do it.
So, what to do? I went back and reread my statement. Suddenly, an answer came…right in the actual words. The statement doesn’t say “don’t look.” It says not to look for what we don’t want to find. So, instead of looking for negative things, maybe the answer is to look for the good things in other people; those qualities that draw us closer and help to build a relationship based on true admiration. Remember that on the surface, a block of coal is just a dirty, dark lump of rock. But if we break open the coal looking to find something worthwhile, a diamond might be revealed. Instead of focusing on the way people fall short, maybe the happiness in a relationship comes from honoring the talents and assets of a person and celebrating those. There’s nothing foolish about that.
Breaking the Surface to Net a Catch
We’ve all heard the saying, “There are plenty of fish in the sea.” However, as I sat watching sea birds this summer, I began to wonder if instead of stressing the plenitude of fish, we shouldn’t be focusing more on the technique of the fisherman. For the purpose of this consideration, I will call upon the behavior of three birds I watched carefully from the shore.
The first bird is one most often associated with the sea shore: the gull. A bird of substantial size, he makes his presence known on the beach. Most often seen in the sky above lunching beach-goers, the gull has a loud, repetitive call and a persistence that is difficult to ignore. Interestingly enough, though, the sea gull is not spoken of by most people with deep admiration. Perhaps it is because he is a nag. Whether stalking from the sand or the sky, the gull is almost too eager for acknowledgment. Once the sympathetic beach beauty does offer a scrap of her lunch to the gull, he screams out loudly, announcing her generosity to every other lurking gull. Before she knows it, she is surrounded by scavengers, all looking for a piece of what she’s offered the one. And once the goodies are gone, so are the birds, leaving behind only their messy droppings. It’s no wonder they have the reputation that they do. Despite the fact they evolved with sharp beaks, impressive wingspans, and keen eyesight – all qualities that make them skilled fishermen – the gulls are perceived as a lazy menace. They are often shooed away from the beach with bellies empty, left to fly across the horizon unsatisfied.
The sandpiper on the other hand never makes direct contact with beach-goers in its hunt for food. Instead, it shows up as the tide begins to retreat and fishes joyfully at the water’s edge. When the ocean breaks on land, the sandpiper retreats quickly on tiny legs that are amusing to observe. And as the water retreats, he follows in the tide to take advantage of the baby clams that were once hidden by sand. Partnered with the sea in its quest for food, the sandpiper penetrates only the shallow, soft sand to dine on the once burrowed clams that are now within easy reach. While it is willing to get its feet wet in the quest for satisfaction, it’s never seen floating in the sea and certainly doesn’t take great risk. It is a shallow fisherman. And, while it seems satisfied with what it finds, the tiny sandpiper returns throughout the day to work terribly hard for tiny clams.
Finally, my favorite of the sea birds is the tern. Resembling a small gull, these birds appear in small flocks over the ocean, not far from the shore. Skilled aviators, they move in the wind like graceful dancers, eyeing crabs and small fish that swim just beneath the ocean’s surface. The tern navigates the wind like a kite, unaltered in its mission and not discouraged by a shift in direction. It is a brave and determined fisherman that navigates with agility. It floats on the breeze and scours the waters below for the perfect catch. It seems particular and patient; almost confident that its persistence will offer reward. Then, like a World War II divebomber, the tern plunges into the sea bravely and swiftly, adding strategy to its dance. It is not afraid to penetrate the surface, knowing that the substance often found below the superficial current will be worth the time and risk invested. More often than not, the term reemerges into the sky with a beak full of fish. Then it soars to greater heights and ventures off to (I’m assuming) a nest to enjoy its catch.
Whle it may be true that “there are plenty of fish in the sea,” I have also learned from the sea birds that fishing strategy plays an important role in securing a “catch.” We can be like the gull who is persistent and noisy, satisfied with scraps of whatever is offered to us and never willing to take real risk . We could also be like sandpipers who work very hard for very little reward. But it is the tern, I think, that offers the greatest lessons for us about netting a catch worth holding. If we can be patient in our search, learn to be resilient in our effort, and be brave enough to penetrate the surface, I think the fish we end up with will be worth all our effort in the end.
A Crab Worth Cracking
I had dinner the other night with a friend who is … well … guarded. We’ve been friends for more than two decades and I still run into his self-imposed walls every once in a while. I don’t think it is that he is shy. In fact, he’s a pretty outgoing guy. But with most people, his friendly demeanor is pretty superficial. Rarely do people get past the tough outer shell with him. I don’t think it’s because he is afraid to venture out; instead, I think he’s hesitant to let people in.
On another night last week I was having dinner with a different friend (my life is blessed). As we weighed our options, I considered ordering snow crabs. My friend wrinkled her nose and replied, “They are just too much work.” She opted for a cheeseburger and during the course of our conversation told me about an argument with her boss, revealed details about her sex life, and even cried about the recent loss of her mother. She is an open book. We are very much alike in that way. In fact, I could probably benefit from being a little more guarded with my feelings or intentions.
This week I’ve been thinking about my friend’s criticism of the crabs: “They are just too much work.” What she meant is that she doesn’t want to be bothered with cracking the hard shell. She doesn’t want to have to carefully pick to find the meat. She doesn’t want to get her hands dirty. But what she’s missing with all of those hesitations is a chance to savor the sweetness of the crab that is only known once the shell is cracked open.
My two dinner outings this week also have me thinking about the variety of people with whom I share relationships. My two dinner companions don’t know each other. If they did, I doubt they’d be friends. She is too busy splashing openly in the water while he is nested in mud, protected by a shell she has no interest in cracking. They are very different creatures in the same great, big ocean.
But let’s go back to the snow crab. There is more to the crab than his stubborn shell. For example, did you know that before mating begins, a male snow crab will hold onto a female for up to three weeks? He becomes her companion and protector, fending off other males and predators. That’s some serious cuddle time! He also then helps her molt (or undress) before mating begins. It’s all kind of chivalrous and romantic, don’t ya think? But this extended time frame could also imply the crab’s need to trust its mate; a need to build a connection and shared understanding before real intimacy happens. And since the female crab carries fertilized eggs for up to two years before they are hatched into the sea, I’m pretty sure she wants to know that the guy who put all those babies in there was worth her time!
Some people are like crabs. To say that a relationship with a “crab” is always easy would be a lie. There have admittedly been times when my frustration level with a “crab” – my inability to break through his shell – almost prompted me to walk away, to abandon the relationship for something easier. But what I’ve come to realize is that everyone operates at their own pace. We all come to trust and to love at different times. The trick, I think, is to respect each others’ boundaries and to honor each others’ needs. And like the snow crab, our eyes need to be open to the parasites and barnacles who will attach themselves to us for their own benefit.
I am reminded of the old saying: “There are plenty of fish in the sea.” That is certainly true. Each of them has their own beauty and makes their own contributions to our ecosystem. But each also has their own vulnerabilities and weaknesses. Some are just easier to catch than others. While the crab may be the trickiest to net, I’d argue this: inside that hard outer shell is often a sweet, delicious meat worth discovering. It takes patience and persistence. We may even sometimes get a little scratched up trying to find it. But when we do, the tender inside often makes all the effort worthwhile.
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